Something very strange and horrible happened tonight.
After a fairly busy day, involving cleaning our gutters, tidying up the house, and sucking three Dyson canisters' worth of Russell hair out of the carpets, JP and I were ready to chill tonight. He settled down to watch some awful Adam Sandler movie on TV, and I found myself...
Restless? Agitated? Twitchy?
No, I was bored. I don't even remember the last time I was bored (barring times when I didn't have control over the circumstances, such as boring meetings at work). I could knit, I could spin, I could sew, I could read...but I didn't want to do any of those things. I didn't want to clean any more. I'd already napped, we'd played with the Russells, I'd pruned my roses, all my Julip Bags shipping was up-to-date...I had nothing to do that I WANTED to do.
I'm very rarely bored/un-busy. I've always got something to do. I'm one of those Type-A's that can't just chill and sit on the couch, I start feeling guilty unless I'm doing something. Then I remembered what my doctor had said last time I saw him...what it boiled down to was I needed to find a happy place. A place to chill, a place to relax, a place to FORCE myself to admit that it's okay to not always be "DOING." He recommended laying down in a quiet bedroom for fifteen minutes after I get home from work (not feasible due to Russells scratching/howling at the door and a husband asking me repeatedly what I want for dinner). Or perhaps sitting quietly in a park before going home (not feasible since after an hour of commuting I really DO just want to get home).
So in a moment of rare clarity a few days ago, I remembered something that used to bring me joy, brought me peace, brought me a great deal of happiness (and yeah, some associated stress and exhaustion, since I'm honest)...
Here is where we begin another "Thing You May Not Have Known About Me." I started playing flute in 6th grade (after playing piano and cello before that). I was in "real" marching band from 6th through 12th grade, concert band 6th through my senior year of college, and pep band all through college. A music scholarship based on my flute-y skill paid for a bulk of my college tuition. My high school graduation present from my parents was my beloved Gemeinhardt (above) and then I studied under Sonny Burnette at Georgetown.
Then, probably like many musicians before me, I graduated and got married a year-and-a-half later, and rarely even picked up my flute again. Especially since on the rare occasion that I pulled it out of the closet Mickey would howl along in an angry Russell fury that made me WANT to pack the flute up.
Well, tonight I pulled it out of the closet again and was able to find peace, joy, and happiness in the fact that the rusty connection between my brain and fingers regarding flats and sharps wasn't entirely busted. Mickey howled along for half an hour until he finally gave up, and JP was appropriately appreciative of my efforts. Then after I packed up the flute (since my chops are shot and my lung capacity ain't what it used to be), I found this blog and found inspiration in dragging the HitchHiker out of my office...
Mmm....merino..................